my goal in life right now is to have flawless skin and to become as skinny as possible. like a stick.

原来你这样珍惜我
从前在热恋中都未听讲过
别说这种行货哪里留得住我
到底是为什么分手你很清楚
如何笨到底但到底还是我
谁人待我好待我差太清楚
想继续装傻 却又无力受折磨
心里羡慕那些人
盲目到不计后果

我就回去别引出我泪水 
尤其明知水瓶座最爱是流泪 
若然道别是下一句 
可以闭上了你的嘴 
无谓再会要是再会更加心碎

要是回去没有止痛药水
拿来长岛冰茶换我半晚安睡 
十年后或现在失去 
反正到最尾也唏嘘
够绝情我都赶我自己出去


犹如最结实的堡垒
原来在逐点崩溃逐点粉碎
极固执的如我 也会捱不下去
每天扮著幸福始终有些心虚
如何笨到底但到底还是我
谁人待我好待我差太清楚
想继续装傻却又无力受折磨
心里羡慕有些人
盲目到不计后果

我就回去别引出我泪水
尤其明知水瓶座最爱是流泪
若然道别是下一句
可以闭上了你的嘴
无谓再会要是再会更加心碎

要是回去没有止痛药水
拿来长岛冰茶换我半晚安睡
十年后或现在失去
反正到最尾也唏嘘
够绝情我都赶我自己出去


lyrics that said everything i want to tell you. 

very true ley. 

most of the times

scaredy cat! 

love and hate for romance movies

i am watching  romantic drama on the telly now. i don't usually enjoy watching romantic stuff because i...i just don't. i get so into the story, and especially if the lead actor is cute, i wonder why i cant be the actress. why it cant happen to me!!! :( and then when the whole show ends, i would go...owwwwwwwww i want more! I WANT MORE! so this is why i don't like romantic shows but i dont like is because i get sad. it was so cute when the guy hugged the girl because she was talking to much and i'm like owwwwww. OKAY you get what i mean.

hi

i bought alot alot alot alot of clothes. it's literally a sea of clothes! i can swim in them.

my friend wrote this on her blog.

"today when i was on the bus to work a bunch of juvies shits got on and the sat near me and were calling me names like “casper” and saying i was fat and asking if i was a boy or a girl. the rest of my day was terrible, and i felt like shit. obviously i need to be super skinny, have a fake tan and have my tits out to have society accept me. fuck everything"


why do people have to say words that hurt?

i am fucking worried for my own future.

i am shaking with tremendous fear.

i am falling from nowhere to nowhere.

“I hate the word 'fate'. Birth, encounters, partings, success and failure, fortune and misfoturtunes in life. If our lives are already set in stone by fate, than why are we even born? If that is all caused by fate, then God is incredibly unfair and cruel. Because ever since that day, none of us had a future and the only certain thing was that we wouldn't amount to anything.”

thank God there are choices. just don't know if i made the right ones.

Sometimes i do get really sad because i feel like i'll be alone forever. even though i'm terrified of romance, i still feel like might need someone. and then i remind myself that when opportunities arise, i always run away. :/

bored p0st 1oh1

i have finally become sick. so i'd stayed at home and sniff and sleep.

i just want to say, i am afraid of starting school again because i am don't want to make new friends again because i suck at it.  wish people would come become my friends on their own. whatever. eating lunch alone would be ok too.

the camera hates me. lol wtv!

the camera hates me. lol wtv!

GUESS HOW MUCH IS THIS.