明年19歲的生日會怎麼過？好期待，但系又覺得無會有甚麼特別.......... friends and readers. HAVE A GREAT GREAT GREAT NEW YEAR! This will be the last entry for 2011 :)

fuck. the xx is becoming mainstream. :(

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Definitions of Types of Death

In a practical sense, however, the exact moment at which a person is “dead” is an argument over a very fine point indeed. The fact remains that humans do die. Death does eventually occur at some point. But there are many types of death, and it’s good to know some definitions.

Necrobiosis. Individual cells die all the time. The cells in your body today weren’t there years ago, except your nerve cells. Necrobiosis is the death of cells over the lifespan of an organism. After necrobiosis, a cell is replaced with a new one in a continual process throughout a human’s life.

Necrosis. When many cells die at once, it isn’t the normal continual necrobiosis of life. Necrosis is the death of an organ or part of an organ. In medicine this is called infarction (yes, that’s how it’s supposed to be spelled.)

Clinical Death. No breathing, no circulation, and no brain activity characterize clinical death. But that’s only half. The other side, the most integral part which separates clinical death from somatic death, is that clinical death begins at the very onset of the symptoms of death, say right after cardiac arrest has cause the heart to stop. It lasts for about four minutes, and it is the interval in which life can be brought back through CPR. After a short few minutes, death is permanent, because the state of the body has gone from clinical death to…

Brain Death. A brain deprived of oxygen survives for 3 to 7 minutes, making it the first organ to die when circulation or respiration ceases or is impeded, whatever the cause of trouble may be. After a few minutes, the brain can’t be brought back to life by any means available today. This is brain death, and it’s the reason why clinical death, the period in which a person can be resuscitated, is so short. Once the brain goes, the heart doesn’t know how to pump and the lungs don’t know how to breath.

Somatic death. Eventually an organism ceases to be in the process of dying and proceeds to be dead. Somatic death is the death— the permanent, irreversible death— of an organism as a whole. In humans it is usually after brain death, as the other vital organs are unable to function without the brain. With modern technology, though, one can be brain dead but still have circulation and respiration artificially. In such a case one isn’t somatically dead because other organs are still alive. Once artificial support is removed somatic death occurs, because the person is then entirely and completely inactive with regard to brain, circulation, and respiration.

holy shit. the pimple cream is stinging my skin right now. IT BURNS IT BURNS!!! AHHHHH!!!! *attempts to decrease the burning sensation by moving facial muscles*

LOL NOPE IT DIDNT WORK! 

Anyway, tomorrow IS the LAST DAY of the year. WHOOPEY PIE! WHOOP WHOOP WHOOP! 

AND I GOT A JOB! WHOOOHOOOOO! 

EATING CHOCOLATE RIGHT NOW

SHOR-KA-LOTTE! 

life iz good this very moment. WHOOHOHssaidjlkdhsajfkhasjdhsadamsakdansd :D

OKAYYYYY GOOD BYE FOR NOW!!

xoxo

I asked the zebra
are you black with white stripes?
or are you white with black stripes?
and the zebra asked me,
Is a sandwich bread with filling in it?
or filling with bread around it?
Is the sky blue with cloudy patches?
or is it cloudy with blue patches?
Is a witch mean with evil ways?
or is she evil with mean ways?
Is a friesian black with white patches?
or is it white with black patches?
Is a circle a ring with space in it?
or is it space with a ring around it?
Is a tiger brown with yellow stripes?
or is it yellow with brown stripes?
And on and on and on and on,
and on he went.
I'll never ask a zebra
about stripes
Again.




I asked the zebra
are you black with white stripes?
or are you white with black stripes?
and the zebra asked me,
Is a magpie black with white patches?
or is it white with black patches?
Is a lake water with land around it?
or land with water in it?
Is an orange, peel with segments in it?
or segments with peel around it?
Is an island land with water around it?
or water with land in it?
Is the Kilkenny jersey amber with black stripes?
Or is it black with amber stripes?
Is the Japanese flag a red circle with white around it?
Or is it white with a red circle in it?
And on and on and on and on,
and on he went.
I'll never ask a zebra
about stripes
Again.



I asked the zebra
are you black with white stripes?
or are you white with black stripes?
and the zebra asked me,
Is an egg, yolk with albumen around it?
Or albumen with yolk in it?
Is a circle a ring with space in the middle of it?
Or space with a ring around it?
Is a pie, filling with pastry around it?
Or pastry with filling in it?
Is a book, a cover with pages in between?
Or pages with cover around it?
Is the Kilcock Anti-Incinerator flag, blue with white stripes?
Or white with blue stripes?
And on and on and on and on,
and on he went.
I'll never ask a zebra
about stripes
Again.


This year's christmas was pretty miserable. i think i'd learnt nothing new this year. can't believe i'm going to be 19! OMG. wow. wow. wow. wow.

• Angry / Displeased: (*≧m≦*) (>_<) (,,#ﾟДﾟ) ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ o(>< )o ｏ( ><)o ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ （＞д＜） （;≧皿≦） [○･｀Д´･○] ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ Σ(-`Д´-ﾉ；)ﾉ (((p(>o<)q))) (/ﾟДﾟ)/ ( ¬д¬。) ヽ(#`Д´)ﾉ (¬､¬) （；¬＿¬) (;¬_¬) (；¬д¬) (≧σ≦) o(-`д´- ｡) ヽ(●-`Д´-)ノ (*￣m￣) (´Д｀) (；￣Д￣） (¬_¬)ﾉ (＃｀д´)ﾉ (」゜ロ゜)」 Σ(▼□▼メ) (〝▼皿▼） (▼皿▼#) ヽ( ｀0´)ﾉ (︶︹︺) (≧０≦) （。＞。＜。） 【><。】 （━┳━◇━┳━）(━┳━＿＿━┳━) (━┳━○━┳━) (━┳━ _ ━┳━) (┳◇┳) {{|└(>o< )┘|}} ＼(＠O＠)／ （≧▼≦；) ＼(〇O〇)／ s(・｀ヘ´・;)ゞ（▼へ▼メ）＼(`O´θ／ θ＼(；￢_￢) ヽ(｀⌒´メ)ノ 凸(-0-メ) 凸(｀△´＋） 凸(｀0´)凸 凸(｀⌒´メ)凸 ＼(｀0´)／ -`д´- (>人<)
• Apologizing: m(_ _)m m(._.)m ｍ（．＿．）ｍ （ﾉ´д｀） (シ_ _)シ <(_ _)>　＜(。_。)＞ ｍ（＿　＿；；ｍ m(￢0￢)m
• Bears: (￣(エ)￣) (｡･ω･｡) (●｀･(ｴ)･´●) (*ノ・ω・） 川´･ω･`川 ( (ﾐ´ω`ﾐ)) ヾ(T(エ)Tヽ) ＼(・｀(ｪ)・)/ ⊂(ο･㉨･ο）⊃ (^(エ)^) (^(I)^) (￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ ⊂(￣(工)￣)⊃ ⊂(^(工)^)⊃ ⊂(・(ェ)・)⊃ (*￣(ｴ)￣*) ヾ(´(ｴ)｀ﾉﾞ (／(ｴ)＼) ⊂(￣(ｴ)￣)⊃ “(`(エ)´)ノ (｀(エ)´)ﾉ Ψ(￣(ｴ)￣)Ψ (/-(ｴ)-＼) (´(エ)｀) ヽ(￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ (／￣(ｴ)￣)／ ┏((＝￣(ｴ)￣=))┛ (●￣(ｴ)￣●) (♥ó㉨ò)ﾉ♡ ・㉨・ (ó㉨ò)
• Cats: (=^･ｪ･^=) (=^‥^=) ( =①ω①=) (=^･^=) o(^・x・^)o d(=^･ω･^=)b V(=^･ω･^=)v (=ＴェＴ=) (=;ェ;=) (=｀ω´=) ヽ(=^･ω･^=)丿 (=^･ω･^)y＝ ＼(=^‥^)/'` (^-人-^) ヽ(^‥^=ゞ) (^・ω・^ ) (=^-ω-^=) b(=^‥^=)o (.=^・ェ・^=) （=´∇｀=） ヾ(=ﾟ･ﾟ=)ﾉ ~(=^‥^)ノ ~(=^‥^)/ (=ｘェｘ=) (=；ェ；=) (=｀ェ´=) (^･o･^)ﾉ" <(*ΦωΦ*)> (^._.^)ﾉ └(=^‥^=)┐ ='①。①'=
• Confused: (´･_･`) (◎_◎;) (｀_´)ゞ (◎-◎；) (・_・ヾ (￣(エ)￣)ゞ (-_-)ゞ゛ ('◇')? ヽ(゜Q。)ノ？ (´｀;) ？ 【・ヘ・?】 【・_・?】 ( ・◇・)？ (゜-゜) ヾ(´･ ･｀｡)ノ" ｢(ﾟﾍﾟ) ( ?´_ゝ｀) o(´^｀)o (´−｀) ﾝｰ (」ﾟヘﾟ)」 (•ิ_•ิ)? 「(°ヘ°) (。ヘ°) ヽ(゜Q。)ノ？ (´｀;) ？ 〈(゜。゜) (゜。゜) く（＾_・）ゝ (^～^;)ゞ
• Dancing: ヘ(^_^ヘ) (ノ^_^)ノ o(^^o) (o^^)o (ノ´＿ゝ｀）ノ ヾ(^ ^ゞ (ノ‥)ノ ( ﾉ^ω^)ﾉﾟ ヾ(*´∇`)ﾉ ヾ(･ω･*)ﾉ (*ﾉ´□`)ﾉ 。(⌒∇⌒。) (。⌒∇⌒)。 〜(￣▽￣〜) (〜￣▽￣)〜 〜(^∇^〜） （〜^∇^) 〜(￣△￣〜) (〜￣△￣)〜 ┗(｀ー´)┓ ┏(｀ー´)┛ ┗(＾0＾)┓ (＾0＾)┛ (ノ￣ー￣)ノ ヘ(￣ー￣ヘ) ヘ(￣ω￣ヘ) (ノ￣ω￣)ノ ヘ(^o^ヘ)(ノ^o^)ノ ヾ(-_- )ゞ ヾ(＠^∇^＠)ノ (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ ＼(^ω^＼) (ﾉﾟ▽ﾟ)ﾉ ヽ(ﾟｰﾟ*ヽ) ヽ(*ﾟｰﾟ*)ﾉ (ﾉ*ﾟｰﾟ)ﾉ ヽ(*´Д｀*)ﾉ (o´･_･)っ ヾ(*д*) ヽ(°◇° )ノ ヽ( °◇°)ノ (ノ°ο°)ノ (ﾉ･o･)ﾉ ヾ(^^ゞ) ヾ(ﾟ∀ﾟゞ) ヽ(´ー`)ﾉ ヾ（*⌒ヮ⌒*）ゞ 〈( ^.^)ノ ┌（★ｏ☆）┘ └（★ｏ★）┐ ♪(┌・。・)┌
• Dead: x_x；） (*_*) (×_×;） (×_×# (#+_+) (+_+) ヾ(×× ) ﾂ （Ω_Ω） へ（><#）ノ (＊0＊;)
• Dogs: Uo･ｪ･oU ∪･ω･∪ U｡･ｪ･｡U ▽・ω・▽ ▽・ｗ・▽ Ｕ^皿^Ｕ ｖ・。・Ｖ ＵＴｪＴＵ (^・(I)・^) U・♀・U ｏ（Ｕ・ω・）⊃ (^・x・^) (U・x・U) ▼o・ェ・o▼ U＾ェ＾U U￣ｰ￣U
• ┌U･ｪ･U┘ └@(･ｪ･)@┐ ヾ(●ω●)ノ (〓￣(∵エ∵)￣〓)
• Drinking: ｏ口(・∀・ ) (。・・)_且 且_(ﾟ◇ﾟ；)ノﾞ ~旦_(^O^ ) (　 ゜Д゜)⊃旦 ( ´･ω･`)_且~ ( ^-^)_旦"" (*^◇^)_旦 (*｀▽´)_旦~~ ~(=^‥^)_旦~ (＾-＾)＿日 ~~旦_(･o･;) ( -_-)旦~ (＃´ー´)旦 且_(・_・ )
• Evil / Sneaky: (・｀ω´・) ψ(｀∇´)ψ （｀ー´） (｡･｀ω´･｡) o(｀ω´*)o | ｀Д´| (｀ε´)(σ- `д･´) (｀Д´*) （=｀〜´=） (ﾒ｀ﾛ´)/ Ψ(｀▽´)Ψ (#｀∀´)_Ψ (*-`ω´- )人 (ц｀ω´ц*) (｀∀´)Ψ ψ(*｀ー´)ψ Ψ(｀◇´)Ψ “ψ(｀∇´)ψ
• Greetings / Goodbyes: ヾ(＾∇＾) (^-^*)/ ( ﾟ▽ﾟ)/ ( ^_^)／ (^o^)/ (^ _ ^)/ ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ (ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ (ヾ(´･ω･｀) ☆ﾐ(o*･ω･)ﾉ ＼(＾▽＾*) (*＾▽＾)／ (￣▽￣)ノ ヾ(-_-;)
• ヾ( ' - '*) ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ ~ヾ ＾∇＾ ~ヾ(＾∇＾) ＼(￣O￣) (｡･ω･)ﾉﾞ (*^･ｪ･)ﾉ
• (￣∠ ￣ )ﾉ (*￣Ｏ￣)ノ ヾ(｡´･_●･`｡)☆ (/・0・) (ノ^∇^) (,, ･∀･)ﾉ゛ (。･д･)ﾉﾞ
• ＼(°o°；） (｡´∀｀)ﾉ (o´ω`o)ﾉ ( ･ω･)ﾉ (。^_・)ノ ( ・_・)ノ ＼(-o- ) (。-ω-)ﾉ
• ＼(-_- ) ＼( ･_･) ヾ(´￢｀)ﾉ ヾ(☆▽☆) (^ Q ^)/゛ ~(＾◇^)/ ヘ('◇'、)/ ヘ(°◇、°)ノ
• ヘ(°￢°)ノ ヘ(゜Д、゜)ノ （ ゜ρ゜)ノ ー( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
• Happy: (●´∀｀●) (｀・ω・´)” ヽ(；▽；)ノ (*´・ｖ・) (((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o))) ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ (⌒▽⌒)☆ ⊂((・▽・))⊃ (≧∇≦)/ (´･ω･`) （’-’*) ∩( ・ω・)∩ (*≧▽≦)
• ＼（＾ ＾）／ Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ （　´∀｀） (^～^) ＼（＠￣∇￣＠）／　 (☆^O^☆)
• (★^O^★) (☆^ー^☆) (´ω｀★) ＼（Ｔ∇Ｔ）／ ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ *(*´∀｀*)☆ Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ ヽ(*⌒∇⌒*)ﾉ d=(´▽｀)=b ＼(*T▽T*)／ ヽ(‘ ∇‘ )ノ （*＾ワ＾*） (＾Д＾)ﾉ (´∀`) (°◇°;) (゜▽゜;) (/^▽^)/ (ﾉ´ｰ`)ﾉ ヽ(´ー`)ﾉ (　＾∇＾) ＼( ｀.∀´)／
• (●⌒∇⌒●) o(≧∇≦o) ヽ(｀◇´)/ ヽ(*・ω・)ﾉ （＾ω＾） ｡◕‿◕｡ ⊙ω⊙　⊙△⊙　 o (◡‿◡✿) (∩_∩) (•ิ_•ิ) (/•ิ_•ิ)/
• Hiding: |･ω･｀) ﾍ(･_| ｜−・;） |ω・） |_・)
• Kissing: (´ε｀ )♡ ～(^з^)-☆ |°з°| （＿ε＿） ('ε') |(￣3￣)| （￣ε￣＠） （*＾3＾）
• (´ε｀*) (○´3｀)ﾉ (☆´3｀) (*￣з￣) (づ￣ ³￣)づ （○゜ε＾○） (TεT) (-ε- ) （＠ーεー＠） （*＾3＾）/～☆ ლ(|||⌒εー|||)ლ
• Laughing: （・∀・） （　´∀｀） （⌒▽⌒） （＾ｖ＾）
• Mellow / Whatever: ヽ（´ー｀）┌ ┗┐ヽ(′Д、`*)ﾉ┌┛ ヽ( ´¬`)ノ ┗┃・ ■ ・┃┛ ヾ(´A｀)ノﾟ
• ヽ（・＿・；)ノ ヽ(　￣д￣;)ノ ＼（〇_ｏ）／ ヽ(。_°)ノ ＼(;´□｀)/ ヾ(*´ー`)ノ ヽ('ー`)ノ ヽ(ー_ー )ノ (´～｀；） ┐('～`；)┌ ヽ（*ω。）ノ (;´・`)> （＾～＾）
• Painful: ☆⌒(＞。≪) ☆￣(＞。☆ ~(>_<。)＼ ヘ(><#)ノ (。_＋)＼ (xLx)ヾ /(*ι*)ヾ (ノ><)ノ ／(x~x)＼ ◎☆（♯××）┘ ヘ（。□°）ヘ
• Sad / Crying: ｡･ﾟﾟ･(>д<;)･ﾟﾟ･｡ (。┰ω┰。) (*´；ェ；`*) (゜´Д｀゜) （ｉДｉ） (´；ω；`) 。ﾟ(ﾟﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ ヽ(´□｀。)ﾉ (ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ {{p´Д｀q} ヽ(●ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ●)ﾉﾟ ( p_q) .・゜゜・（／。＼）・゜゜・． (个_个) ((´д｀)) ( ≧Д≦) ｡゜(｀Д´)゜ (。┰ω┰。) p(´⌒｀｡q)
• Scared: (ノдヽ) ヽ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ (／。＼) （／_＼） （／．＼）
• Shocked / Surprised: ( ꒪Д꒪)ノ (((( ;°Д°)))) ((((；゜Д゜))) （゜◇゜） （￣□￣；） ∑(O_O；) ＼(>o<)／ ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||)━ Σ(゜ロ゜;) Σ(゜゜) (*ﾟﾛﾟ) (」゜ロ゜)」 щ(゜ロ゜щ) (ﾉﾟ0ﾟ)ﾉ~ ⊙▂⊙
• ⊙０⊙ w(°ｏ°)w L(・o・)」 (○o○) （・□・；）
• Shy / Embarrassed: ^_^;) (^^ゞ (^^;) (#^.^#) ('-'*) (*^^*) （＠´＿｀＠） (⌒_⌒;) (#｀ε´#ゞ （*/∇＼*） (〃￣ω￣〃ゞ (*´ｪ｀*) (*´∀`*) (*´_ゝ｀) (*´∀`*) (/ω＼) (*ﾉ▽ﾉ) (*ﾉωﾉ) （/｡＼) （。-＿-。）
• Singing: ヾ(´□｀* )ノ （＾Ｏ＾☆♪ ＼(^o^)／ (´▽｀)ノ♪ "ヽ(´▽｀)ノ" ヽ(´▽｀；)/♪ ヽ(´・｀)ﾉ ヽ(○´∀`)ﾉ♪ ヾ(´ρ｀)〃 ヾ(´〇｀)ﾉ (´△｀)♪ (ﾉ´▽｀)ﾉ♪
• Sleeping / Waking Up: ［(－－)］zzz (´～`) ヾ(。￣□￣)ﾂ ヾ(￣0￣； )ノ ヾ(。￣□￣)ﾂ ヾ(。￣□￣)ﾂ ヾ(￣□￣;)ﾉ (。-ω-)zzz (-_-) zzz (∪｡∪)｡｡｡zzz
• Smug: ー(￣～￣)ξ (`へ´*)ノ (￣^￣) （￣へ￣） （￣～￣;） (￣ェ￣;) (-、-) ( ；｀ヘ´)
• o(´^｀)o (￣ω￣;)
• Winking: （＾＿－） (－ｏ⌒) （＾＿−） (^_-) (^_−)☆ (⌒.−)＝★
• Worried: (ーー;) ( ；´Д｀) （；￣ェ￣） ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ (￣◇￣;) ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ （−＿−；） (~_~;) ((*゜Д゜) (･_-｡ ) ⊙﹏⊙ ミ●﹏☉ミ (-'๏_๏'-) (⊙...⊙ ) ( ´△｀) (;° ロ°)
• ヽ（゜ロ゜；）ノ （°o°；）
• Stars / Symbols: ━━☆＞＾） ☆彡　　★彡　　☆彡　　★彡 ☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆.。.:*・°☆ `*:;,．★ ～☆・:.,;*

Hello friends, strangers and readers. I have stopped dieting. Because I pigged out yesterday. It has been raining and i'm too lazy to go running. So BLAH! Meanwhile, here's a screenshot of my favorite songs in my playlist called, 'Happiness'. Sorry if you cannot see the full title for some, but i'm sure that if you google it you'll be able to find it.

SUBMISSION IS OVER! Many things to do this jolly jolly season. HOHOHO. i want to dress up as a fat santa. I started my 'diet' for three days already so I am going to complete the 30 days challenge till day three!


Day One- Your stats


age: 18
weight: 54kg/121pounds
thigh: 19.5 inch
arm: 9.8 inch
waist: 25.9 inch


Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?


I am (or the last time I had my height taken at the gym..which was, a month plus ago) 173/4cm.... 
Dont care, just going to say I'm 5ft 7! I think I like my height, I really do but if I can, I would like to grow taller! You know how some girls don't seem to like the fact that you are tall for an asian girl? They start giving lame comments—  like, ''Yeah I might be short but I also don't want to be as tall as you.'' YOU SURE NOT? I can see it in your eyes (while looking down on you) that that's not what you really mean eyyyyy. And when I question them why, they (or some) have replied, ''Guys prefer smaller-size girls.They feel intimidated with tall girls.'' or ''It'll be harder to find clothes lah, cause' usually tall girls need bigger size."  I suppose there's some unintentional hinting and all but I don't agree at all. :(  Anyway I think 173cm is still a comfortable height. I guess, an average Singaporean dude is around my height, so bummer! Perhaps I'm more suited for Caucasians' heheeh! 




Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?

I like Felice Fawn's body (disclaimer: but I heard she was anorexic and lost weight by starving herself). I chose this picture because mainly, it shows off her body loh. She has nice legs. I want to wear everything in my closet without feeling or looking fat. 


I think the main problem is the area on the  both sides, between the waist to hip. it's so CHUNKY MONEKY! The only 'diet' I did was running in the morning and staying out of food with too much sodium, sugar and oil. So no junk food and desserts. But DAMN, i'd just ate ice cream yesterday. And my mom is annoying. She always always make or buy supper for herself and in the end, she can't finish them. Since my dad usually sleeps earlier, she will come to and ask me to help finish her food. Rice, instant noodles, seaweed chicken blah blah blah ... NOT HELPING. 

I am going to do this because i am desperate to lose some weight. the healthy way. but i'll start tomorrow! anyone feel free to do it with me. :)

30 Day Weight Loss Challenge

Day One- Your stats
Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?
Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Day Eight- Your workout routine.
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty-  10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?

if they can do it. SO CAN I!!!!!!!

ms bellum's face

FOUND

"how you doing?"

"fine, how are you?"

great, how are you?

....um, fine?

this is why i am awkward all the time. not a people person! there are so many awkward scenarios and situations, it's happening as if it ... it's the same level as breathing.

1# see a friend in the lift but your friend isn't very close to you

so you know this person and you seen her quite a few times to know her name. you're friends with her on facebook but not to the extend that you have her contact number. do you say hi?...or do you desperately pretend she's not there. but isn't it rude? especially when it's only both of you in the four corners of such compact space? okay, so usually i just avoid eye contact but if it happens that there is eye contact, i just smile. ... and smile.. to myself (creeeeeppppyyyyyy)  so that it doesnt seem too fake. and praying that the lift reach her floor or my floor really soon. it doesnt help either if we're going to the same level. do i say bye? DO I SAY BYE!? it's even worst ifffffff the particular person is a guy. :( 

2# when your friend meets their friend on the streets

i hate it. i fucking hate this. it happens to everyone i suppose, but arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i really really despise the feeling of awkwardly standing aside while waiting for your friend to finish small chat with their friend. and therefore, most of the time, i'll pretend that i need to use the toilet or stare at the floor as if it's so intriguing ....anything to excuse myself or avoid being noticed by the other party. 

then again, if it goes the other way round, like - i happen to bump into a friend and my other friend is along with me, i don't know how to improve the situation either. BUMMMEEEERRR :(

3# when your friend gets a million text messages and you get NONE!

just prove that i have no social life and nobody needs me. hence, to make myself less awkward,i pretend to be texting or checking out facebook on my iphone but actually, i'm just scrolling down my contact list or playing oven break.  :(

4# accidentally making weird noises from my shoes that sound like farts

it happens! especially sneakers. what do i do? tell the onlookers that, 'hey, its my shoes!!!!' :(

5# when you accidentally brushed you hand onto your friend's hand.

OOPSIES hahahhaahahahaha our hands touched. :( weirdddddddddd!


*you can tell i got lazy as the list went on* 

im starting my 'diet' today.

i wonder how does it feel when a chicken lay her eggs... i was taking a dump and i was thinking ...deep.

i'd gained 3 kg over this week. fuck it!

So a glib admission of guilt is even more damning than an outright denial. AND therefore, nobody ever suspects. :)

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.” 

― William Shakespeare

my fingers and my mouth needs to be duct taped.

maybe u should know me better, reader

1. Who’s the last person you talked to about sex? 
mom. awkward.
2. Have you ever sat in the back of a police car? 
no
3. Are you stubborn? 
yes
4. If you took a drug test right now, would you pass? 
yeah
5. Who was the last person to be on a bed with you? 
-
6. Do you tend to hold a grudge? 
no
7. Who is the last person that pissed you off? 
my dog
8. Whats something that bothers you about girls? 
they whine. alot.
9. What’s a fact about the last person that texted you? 
i adore.
10. Who sits in behind you in your math class? 
i dont take maths anymore
11. Where is the biggest scar on your body? 
belly button? haha
12. Have you ever been told you were amazing? 
think so?
13. Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs? 
no
14. When was the last time you fought with your parents? 
yesterday
15. What was the last alcoholic beverage you drank? 
wine
16. What would your last name be if you married the last person you texted?
-
17. Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
yes...and no.
18. Who was the last person to play with your hair? 
-
19. Do you get along with girls? 
yes.
20. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? 
i doubt so.
21. Who was the last person you kissed on the cheek? 
-
22. Who are your last 4 txts from?
jessica
23. Who was the last girl you talked to? 
deborah
24. Do you know anyone who drinks a lot? 
yes
25. Would you ever get plastic surgery? 
yes
26. Do you speak any other languages other than English? 
yes
27. What was the last lie you told your mother?
i didnt have school
28. Have you ever had to call the cops on someone?
yes
29. What was the last compliment you received? 
nice dress
30. Have you talked to a bitch today? 
my dog. she is a bitch.
31. Are your parents divorced? 
no
32. Have you had sex today? 
no
33. Do you judge​ people you don’​t know?​ 
yes. sorry but cant help it.
34. Are you a bad influ​ence?​ 
far of
35. Is there anyone that’s in love with you right now? 
maybe
36. Would you ever live with any of your best friends? 
yes!
37. How many people in your life have you kissed?
a few.
38. Are you photogenic? 
nope.
39. Does anyone know a really deep and dark secret about you?
yeah
40. Do you use birth control pills? 
no
41. When was the last time you went to a funeral? 
a few years ago
42. Has one of your boyfriends best friends ever tried to get with you? 
no
43. What do you receive the most compliments on? 
legs or something
44. Do you currently owe anyone money? 
yes. agnes
45. Would you ever marry anyone for their money? 
maybe...but nah.
46. Do you usually have a lot of drama in your life?
not at all
47. Who do you think is the most attractive actor? 
aaron johnson
48. How old is the last person you kissed on the lips?
same
49. Have you ever walked away from someone who was yelling at you? 
yes
50. Are you 100% over the last person you kissed? 
nope
51. What’s one thing you don’t like about yourself? 
everything
52. Have you told anyone that you missed them lately?
yes