Hey.

I happened to come across this particular photographer while doing my late night internet surfing. I thought it would be nice to share it with you because any blog readers of mine definitely deserve to know. :) Well, i dont do write-ups very regularly so this might all be a bit of a mess...

Soooooo, as awkwardly as I began, Vivian Fu is a photographer based in San FRANNNnnnnn, and she was being raised in the suburbs of San Fernando Valley. And as she introduced herself in her website, she basically does works based on her own identity as an Asian-American woman, as well as how she feels about her body. Too neat.

These are some of my favorite photos by her... and her boyfriend. I really admire Vivian's confidence in herself, her own body, being an 'asian' in a 'western' environment. It is definitely something that I have trouble with right now...as a 21 year old person. As much as I think I should have full control of my own body, I do feel part of me isnt. 

I still remembered having a conversation with a Singaporean guy about pubic hair and whether it should be something that girls/women should have or not. It's quite depressing that the people i grew up with, or the place I grew up from doesnt seem to have a mind of it's own. I wish to change it, but it's like an ant moving the mountains. Getting a bit philosophical here arent we? 

This is just a really random thought-in-the-head post. I dont know, I really wish for alot of things to happen, but it's not going to unless I make it happen. :(

you need to chill out.

i dont know how to respond if youre asking how am i every other day, or wish me 'hope you have a great day'... it just makes me cringe. and i dont want to respond when it makes me cringe. i dont want to say it but, please go away. your negativity gives bad vibes

chatting with my old old old ex classmate from secondary school....and reminiscing the days when we dont have to worry about money or life, it was mainly just getting good grades, not getting caught snacking in class (hello panda in skirt pocket and swiftly pop it in my mouth when ms wong isnt looking), getting through days when the toilet cubicle that were stinking up from the sanitary bin....

also! loitering after cca days till 8pm for relatively pricey bubble tea.

pure bliss. and here i am, just living of digestive biscuits and soda crackers........ in london. no one to blame though, i'd blowed my spendings on some kick ass platforms. HAHAHA don't tell my mom.

looking back

just went through all my old entries from this blog. it is so embarrassing, and i'd realised how much i've grown. the things I wrote...omg i dont even want to mention. but it's really cool, maybe 3 years later i'll come across this entry and be like - why did i even blog about rereading my old posts? HAHAH

if so, hello future sandy, i hope you're still slim and can now walk in high heels properly. x

back from hiatus

the past two weeks had been so intense. never felt so emotionally and mentally drained from a project before. i was cussing myself why i chose this brief since i hardly and never really enjoy working in a team (i understand in the society you cant do that though). 

but i would like to take it back now, because i learnt so much...things that were not taught within the lesson, but during the process of working with my group mates and i am so glad i took the challenge. it was rewarding when the tutor saw the effort we put in, but even more when i learnt about myself and the way i work. thanks to amanda who helped and pull through this mini roller coaster ride. :)

almost half a year since i'd left home. i've never learnt so much things in my life before. feels like everything has been sped up and it's good because it makes me adapt even quicker. working with nice people have made me realised and grown so much. i enjoy this liberation.