i cant remember when is the last time i wrote something freely, and im glad technology allows me to type instead of write (because this is the time when i just cant be arsed to find a pen and paper, to feel the words)... or have all my thoughts come out naturally, first shot through my fingers.
i just returned from my trip to edinburgh and i feel really sad. because i was told that my positivity is made up to hide my dissatisfaction with myself etc... and all i am doing is lying to myself. while part of me refuse to think that it is true, i have to agree...
