home girls

lol. is it funny that im using a ghetto phrase; 'HOME GIRLS'! indeed, these are my 'home girls'. wonderful wonderful wonderful catchup session with these lovely girlies. :D I didnt manage to capture hello-fatcat :((((

retard laughing at her froggy achievement. YAY!! LOL. 

weirdos unite! though we still have a few more missing. haha

*JENG JENG*

somehow jan's pose reminds me of the following.... im sure you agree too! sorry for being mean, but come onnnnn look at the uncanny resemblance! //jazz hands//

we are all definitely growing up. as much as how we all dread about it, it's happening and it won't stop. (cues miley cyrus's we can't stop...omg did i just typed that?) all these new updates is definitely making me want to dance to a$ap's music. idk how it relates, but yes i do! here, here!

till then! x

need to stop this habit of self loath and the desire to 'redeem' myself to fit into someone else's image. i should give myself more credit and love... oh love.

mentally exhausting, but staying up so late to analyse books and research in relation to my work is very satisfying. like, omg there are so much to learn and the way the author perceive is mind-blowing! why didn't i think of that? now that i see it in that way, i can evolve and put what i learnt into creating better works. i'm hopeful. really, i am. i am trying and trying, climbing this excruciating flight of stairs up to...success!!!! meanwhile, i should take some rest and go to bed. :D

till then! x

to be honest, i really enjoy being alone. because you get so much freedom; there are so many things to do without anything or anyone to weigh you down. unfortunately, i hate being lonely and i am always lonely.

even if i have all my friends and a boyfriend by my side, i know i'll always be lonely. it's just something in my head that i can never get out.

 i think...im going to start another personal tumblr, soonish. till then, x

unicorn and fireworks

i've 'celebrated' halloween with jacelyn last week. it was uneventful, quite disgusting, really. that was because the club we went to was so packed, it was like a human meat grinding machine. should have gone to the pub instead. but dressing up and hanging out with princess was really fun! omg, her costume is amazing! i dont have a decent photo of myself though. i didnt like my costume. :(

today was lame. had school at 10.30 and a 'lecture' till 12pm and the longest and most draggy break (of 4 hours) and we had a 'induction' for half and hour and school ended. it was not worth the wait, and they could have just email us the 10 mins worth of instructions. :( the schedule planning is quite terrible. 

milan, looking extremely optimist about having her photo taken. :D

sadly, this is the only photo i've taken of the pretty cafe.

had coffee at a cafe round the corner. lovely setting (as you can tell from the recent decorations still up). had so much cake till i literally wanna roll down the hill back to school. *farts*

everyone was so depressed today. probably due to the awful schedule we had since yesterday. it was long, and some of the classes were pointless. :( had to keep my own chin up as well. but after school ended we got our bums off to london bridge to watch an amazing fireworks show! 

mandatory shot to 'show the crowd' lol. and it was very cold. 

bored, cold, emotional. so much in one day. :D

another beautiful shot of milan. her features are
obviously very charming here. HAHAHA

"oyyyyyy, everyone look here!"
look at amy's lashes. so lush. i swear my eye bags can house a family of 20. 

their heads are just in the view for so many shots!

golden piss in the sky! sandy, how inappropriate!!

somehow finding this very tumblr-esque

its so magikarp! look closely for the same head
ive featured way too many times

champagne! KA POIIIIIIIINK! is that even how it sounds like? 

im quite certain that you are already bored of the pictures of these glittery lights. nevertheless, here's a gif of the video i'd shot. the best way i could think of... bringing you to the magnificent show i'd just seen this evening!!!

till then. x 

i think i have a huge dislike for guys right now.

with the recent stories i have heard from my friends, my faith in meeting a male that is genuine, honest and not just liking you for the shallow factors, is almost non- existent. i dont want to go on into some full-fletched female empowered post right now, but i am honestly fuming by some of the things guys can do to hurt their partners....or ex partners. whatever.

i dont understand how people can go on confessing their love over such a short period of time. it takes so much to understand even yourself, how can you simply tell them you love them over 2 months? seriously, what bullshit is that? and if girls actually believe that crap, it is literally, crap.  i am sick of guys being fucking horny dogs. LOL....


okay, i am not making any sense anymore. just fucking angry i want to stick cactuses into their assholes. thanks. >:(

LOL. seriously, why is it so difficult to have a proper conversation with a male that display interest in you that doesnt have to exploit any part of a female body?

i am honestly really disappointed with myself and the decisions i make sometimes. it is part of growing up. unfortunately, some mistakes are hard to recover from. i am so frustrated , that i dont want to care. i dont want to please anyone. i want to be free, do whatever the hell i want. and i jolly dont have to report anything to anyone. literally being held at gun point sometimes.

i want to work hard for the things i do. able to fully support myself and be surrounded by positive people who actually care for each other.

sadly, it takes way more courage to let somethings go. and i wonder if it would be yet another bad decision. it takes skills and experience. :(