meh.

i dont think you like me as much as i like you so ive to stop. because i deserve better. bye bitchhhhhhhh

Constantly talking isn’t necessarily communicating.

i like talking, but i sort of don’t want to do it anymore… i just want to enjoy someone’s company that enjoys mine, and to be able to understand each other’s expressions and body language. i’ve got to this level with others, i don’t think they, nor anyone else has ever been able or cared enough to get to that level with me. i wannt someone to see every mannerism and know what i’m hiding emotions. i want someone to know when i’m lying.

my belly button is so deep, it goes to another dimension

do you think you touched me and you know me? you're just a boy and i have galaxies growing inside me.

im not here, nor there...im everywhere but somewhere and no one would ever grasp.

i wanna lay on your chest and say what's on my mind

i feel kinda guilty because i hadnt been doing anything and my 3 colleagues are working on the project. and all ive been 'working' on is tumblring and reading horoscopes! HA!
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ive been thinking about you and the things you said, and trying to decipher what it means. i am guessing you have the wrong conception; your relationships with people were probably unhealthy. maybe you'd been giving too much and it was one sided. are you possessive? because you love someone so much, you trust them and drown them in your everything...but they retaliate (maybe they were scare, you are too intense)...and you realized you've complicated it or poisoned it with your emotions and feelings.... so now you fear it might happen again.... but

you want sex. humans crave affection and sex or touch for that matter, is a physical way of expressing affection. but this is a two way thing, and i dont think anyone could ever separate sex from emotions/feelings... it has to have a foundation of all that to be possible. i hope you never cheapen yourself, you are amazing (probably beautiful too) and worth so much more than just sex... so fwb is definitely a fucked up idea.

i really want to uncover more from you, i dont know why... but ive never had this intuition before. but my gut feelings tell me that you dont want or need anyone to right now. it's okay though, i think i'll be a little sad for a while but theres always someone else in the world that i could find.

im glad youre satisfy with what you have in your life now.... freedom and goals to work on. i will always admire someone who enjoys taking challenges and goal oriented!! :)

sian loh. everyone i know is going out with someone cute. HI HI please drop someone from the sky so i can have a lovely summer this year. meh -insert praying emoji-

sometimes, i dont know what I want.

i cant see myself committing to anyone; too aloof and distracted to be connected to just one person. but i want to give it a go..try...i really want to. i dont want to be anyone's fling, or some fuck buddy. it's distasteful (no matter how i want to convince myself that it's fine if you crave for it too) but i just cant do it. people who wants friends with benefits are probably at the extreme ends. either they are too afraid to open up again or they have everything so there's no need for anyone else...it is fucked up both ways.

it's not fair. sex cant be sex (that's just fucking, and animals fuck...) it's suppose to be special and wonderful. not discardable. the thing about sex is you have to commit to someone for it to work. i want to pour my heart and soul to someone and try again but no one wants that.. and its all the wrong people. i feel so jaded, and it's all in my head :,(