sometimes, i feel sad that people from singapore claim that they know hong kong so much. they probably do though. but i just feel sad that i've lost the opportunities to be close to the country i was born in. or, maybe i hadnt lost it yet. i want to keep the things, places and people all to myself. then again, i want to share the things that are good. why do i feel this way?

also, boys/guys/dudes (everything but not a man) can be so such fickle heads. it makes me confused but they are pretty cute...and disgusting at the same time. omg what is wrong with me?

but nevermind, i am doing alright. just having sniffles currently. i hope you are well too!

i look cute here. probably because half my face is covered.

i will never be nice to boys/guys anymore.

please just go away. for fuck sake.

also, i would like to add that....

if you dont open your heart, and your soul...it's very hard for anyone to fall for you, vice versa

advice from myself that i need to use as well.... sigh sigh sigh

hey

how are you? have you been alright? why are you on the internet again? arent you suppose to have actual work to do; projects, school, work? how did you come here? are we friends in real life? i hope not.

sometimes, i feel like i loose touch with reality.

i have created a whole identity of someone i want to be, and manage to convince my head i am who i am (but not really, it's just someone else) and it just sounds way too depressing.

i must admit, i am honest. i enjoy being honest, and the integrity and rawness of it makes me feel comfortable with who i am. however, it gets blurred with who i want to be... i dont think you'll get it. do you? it's cool, no one does. i think i have some sort of phobia of falling in love. i am terrified. i hate it, but i love to experience it and i think i'll keep breaking hearts.

no, no im not a player. i get played (by own mind) too. it's terrible.

can i draw a comic based on this? nah, i'm lazy, i rather just get on asos/uo/ebay (its shit yeah) and buy stuff to numb some of my emotions. i'm afraid of people flipping the tables after uncovering all that's left of me.

this doesnt even make sense because im announcing this to everyone, on the internet. but, but the internet is everyone so it also means its no one.

damn it.

sorry.... ys, p, l, m, n, r, f.....

i feel sick. drank too much, too much smoke, thought too much, burped too much and now a train of hiccups is torturing me too.

too much too

Hey.

I happened to come across this particular photographer while doing my late night internet surfing. I thought it would be nice to share it with you because any blog readers of mine definitely deserve to know. :) Well, i dont do write-ups very regularly so this might all be a bit of a mess...

Soooooo, as awkwardly as I began, Vivian Fu is a photographer based in San FRANNNnnnnn, and she was being raised in the suburbs of San Fernando Valley. And as she introduced herself in her website, she basically does works based on her own identity as an Asian-American woman, as well as how she feels about her body. Too neat.

These are some of my favorite photos by her... and her boyfriend. I really admire Vivian's confidence in herself, her own body, being an 'asian' in a 'western' environment. It is definitely something that I have trouble with right now...as a 21 year old person. As much as I think I should have full control of my own body, I do feel part of me isnt. 

I still remembered having a conversation with a Singaporean guy about pubic hair and whether it should be something that girls/women should have or not. It's quite depressing that the people i grew up with, or the place I grew up from doesnt seem to have a mind of it's own. I wish to change it, but it's like an ant moving the mountains. Getting a bit philosophical here arent we? 

This is just a really random thought-in-the-head post. I dont know, I really wish for alot of things to happen, but it's not going to unless I make it happen. :(