Wednesday, December 25, 2013

it is getting ridiculously cold. i have 5 layers of clothes yet still freezing my tits off :(

yuk. i hate it :((((

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

reading ex classmates blogs made me realized and all this festive season, being on my own...

i felt like i am evaporating as everyone continue with their lives. everyone would eventually grow out of it and carry on living with or without you - or replaced. as someone said before, why choose to be sad when no one notices or cares?

unfortunately, it always feel more comfortable and at ease, to feel self pity. i have now come to this state where i know i should not bother about what other people feel or think anymore. it sound selfish but then again in reality, i am the only person to control my own life. i make my own decision, and it should be based on myself. but, i dont even know what i want....

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

tumblr tag... i wasnt tagged but i wanna do it! youre tagged if you are reading this :)

highlighted if i'd done it
this reminds me so much of secondary school!

Since the start of 2013 I have:
Gotten a new piercing.
Dyed my hair.
Ended a relationship.
Started a new relationship.
Been on a long car journey.
Passed an exam.
Cried on someone’s shoulder. 
Had a massive fight with a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Received flowers. 
Had a Valentine.
Written a letter using pen and paper.
Gone to see a therapist.
Been prescribed medication by a doctor. 
Read a really good book. 
Gone to the zoo.
Spent too much money on unnecessary things. 
Traveled by train. 
Cried over someone. 
Spent a day out in the sun getting a tan.
Slammed a door out of frustration. 
Had an anxiety attack.
Had a BBQ. 
Gone to the fair. 
Gone bowling.
Seen a film at the cinema in 3D. 
Gone on a date. 
Been the only sober one on a night out. 
Helped someone home after they’d had too much to drink. 
Stayed up all night. 
Talked on the phone for over 2 hours. 
Supported someone who’d received bad news.
Watched some kind of live sporting event.
Read an entire book in one day. 
Bought a DVD the day it was released.
Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week.
Cried as a result of exam stress.
Met some incredible new people. 
Fallen backwards off a chair. 
Broken my glasses. 
Cried over someone in my past.
Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet. 
Thrown up.
Cried over a film. 
Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-significant other.
Fought with someone in public.
Been in a relationship for a year or longer.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

let's sit on top of the fence.

definitely afraid of relationships. why do they make you so happy and heartbroken at the same time? of course, if there isnt bad, there wont be any of those good stuff. god, i hate this feeling.

Friday, December 6, 2013

fucking third party developer app!!! >:(

well, recently i'd was talking to someone in regards to using social medias to spread awareness of your existence and the work you create. so, i'd searched how to publish higher quality photos (my network screws up my images on my phone, and it gets all noisy with pixels :((((  ). and managed to download this third party app that allows me to download it directly from my computer.

sadly, it is still on beta test and it screwed up my account, cause instagram flagged it as a spam account. wow. that sucks..... :( so now i've to recreate a new account and unable to use my old name and therefore came up with a lame ass one, 'zzzzsandy'. self explanatory name, isnt it? HAHA i would be sharing pictures i'd taken with my digital camera, mainly life in london and drawings. so you can check that out if you like :) click me to be directed!

directing amanda how to pose. LOL
i was obviously not pretending to look at my camera. HAHA
blargh. well, I HAVE TONS TO DO. sadly flats going to be empty cause everyone is going back, and my friends who arent from london are leaving too. POOP! and it's bloody cold. i cant wait for jon and cass to come already!!!! till then. x