Saturday, March 30, 2013

It is so much safer not to feel, not to let the world touch me.
Sylvia Plath

i think one reason im afraid of commitment is the fact that theres always someone out there whos better than i am and can offer so much more so its like what is even the point of trying??

Friday, March 29, 2013


Yesterday was pretty awesome and adventurous. I wish I can wander into the wood lands and meet baby animals and tweet about it. KIDDING! Sailor Saturn makes me want to cut bangs. She is so cool! Reminds me of Mavis from Hotel Transylvania!!!!


Okay luhhhhh, don't really look like but dayummmm she looks so cool. with that -.- expression. Did I mention her boots are weet weet?

Sunday, March 24, 2013

story of my life


this song is beautiful because it's raining and it matches! i always overact in stupid situations. is it worth getting mad at? no. was anything solved by brawling (internally)? no. can anyone else help you? no, only myself.

okay, figured out i have to keep calm and carry on. cliche but shit, this english people sure know what to do. can people not get emotionally attached but still receive the same treatment? probably not. :(

Saturday, March 23, 2013

I am having heartaches. It's a very long time since the last ones. And I can't talk about it. Zzzz
Holy shit. I am terribly embarrassed by how sudden my emotions could get to me. Really. And I thought nothing but a bar of chocolate couldn't solve. Yes it didn't change anything, just like being upset and throwing fits into the pillow didn't either. Can I suck it up? Yes I've got to.

It's only a matter of how long I can do it. I want to perish; why continue to exist when you are already gone inside?

Meanwhile, I feel really sorry for anyone who genuinely cares...or cared.

Monday, March 18, 2013

"Living in a world with a large demographic that is sadly enslaved to the relationship/marriage fairytale. Everyone is in a rush to jump into a relationship and get married. There is this perverse pursuit of eternal happiness, feeling loved, fulfillment of companionship...and dual incomes. Wisdom and prudence are sidelined as two people, caught in the moment, venture down a dead end street with an attractive entrance."

I, too struggle to stay immune. :(

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Wow! My tapestry cloth thing looks like it's from a green screen. NAH UH! IT IS REALLLLL! lol.


This week has been rather....eventful. Finally moved out of the old house and into this rented place. Very convenient, and there's a park downstairs hopefully, it'll motivate (not even talking about doing it, yet,) to go jogging. Since I'd been eating quite a lot recently, no thanks to... :)

Also, went to uss again! Shit, it's the 5th time already, never getting sick of that place. Not especially with the cylon ride. Yes yes, i don't think im a thrill seeker...or am i? I'd remembered I was so terrified of the rides in Lotte World, but somehow i'm all good here. Weird!

Have not touch my school work, don't even want to think about it. Can I go out more often already? I am still at home almost everyday. LIKE A SLUG. Wait- i forgot what i want to type anymore. Specifically wanted to say something but it got lost into the mind of of mind...whatever.

Sunday, March 10, 2013


i want to run away so bad. but where can i go to?

it's okay, just a few more months and i'm out of here.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Ghost Babies

More from my tumblr. 

A reason why i enjoy spending time alone with the internet, and awe at all this wonderful creation i probably have to go to the library to search....BUT there's no need of that since tumblr is here. and frank ocean to accompany it.

Thursday, March 7, 2013


took my dad's phone and whatapped my uncle, "im gay. whaddup :)"

LOL. he yelled at me and slammed the door at my face and i couldn't stop laughing.....even till now as i type this. aldjsadkjsadklnaskjdnas HAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

shit, i'm so weird. my mom gave me that look and said it wouldnt be as funny if my dad really left us with a new man. LOL I THINK I'D JUST DIED. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Wednesday, March 6, 2013



It's literally 3mx3m. So tiny, I need a lot of storage place for my knickknacks and clothes. Oh dear!

More from here

Sometimes your socks don’t match and sometimes the pattern of your bra doesn’t complement the pattern of your underwear. Sometimes you miss a couple strands of hair when you tie it up, and other times you’ll let it flow down the way it does. The shape of your left and right eyeliner won’t ever......

thus is life.

but i feel that the imperfections in our life, makes it perfect in its own way.

how sentimental. serene....peaceful. LOL! making myself puke while strolling/clicking tagged photos of myself. i don't like social networks. :(

can't believe i've finally got the free time i'd been yearning for so long, yet i'm not doing anything. NOTHING. not productive at all, i wish i have my fyp back. idek. need a job asap, no money can't do anything. 

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

I want to ride your motorbike.
let's go dancing,
till the sky turns so
that the stars don't even have to try.
let this feelings become so
even more than the Mariana Trench.

my weak attempt in writing things from my head. damn.... you won't want to see whats really in my head. shit i creep myself out. WHAT IS HUMANS? WHAT IS DEMONS? :(

Monday, March 4, 2013

you're asleep and i'm sad
i wanted to stay up all night
and talk with you about
your day and why the sky is blue

everything is so easy with us,
our words flow back and forth steadily,
like the gliding of a ship
atop a calm sea

when i feel broken,
you mend me with your words,
when i have nothing to say,
you effortlessly occupy the silence

you fill this gap inside me
in a way that makes me forget
i was ever incomplete

i'd tell you all of this,
but you're asleep.


Sunday, March 3, 2013


This had been an very overwhelming week. I dont even know where to begin or how or whether I should or not. Fortunately, I have never felt so happy since....since the last time I had a good slice of chocolate brownie. Haha! I'm joking. :P

Feel really grateful and blessed. Thank you, God, dude you're awesome!