Holy shit. I am terribly embarrassed by how sudden my emotions could get to me. Really. And I thought nothing but a bar of chocolate couldn't solve. Yes it didn't change anything, just like being upset and throwing fits into the pillow didn't either. Can I suck it up? Yes I've got to.
It's only a matter of how long I can do it. I want to perish; why continue to exist when you are already gone inside?
Meanwhile, I feel really sorry for anyone who genuinely cares...or cared.