feel like purging cause i'd ate too much. it's too good.
i ate kfc meltz, fries, pepsi, 2 chocolate eggtarts. explosion!

awesomeee

teenage angst. whatever that is. i'd just googled it. they say it's normal. it's normal to be angry and frustrated without a reason? wow. hormones? screw you. maybe it's satan.

TIME TO READ THE BIBLE.

btw, porn is actually....peas with corn.

my life sucks. i fucking hate everyone. and i don't even know the reason why. i see that fat boy playing with his iphone, i want to punch his fucking face. that old man ogling over some random china woman, i want to punch his fucking face. that woman who sells children underwear at the wet market, i want to punch her fucking face. i look into the mirror, i want to punch my fucking face. i was watching family guy, and i want to punch peter griffin fucking face. and his fucking dog, his fucking daughter, his fucking wife and his SONS!!! i think i'm going to explode. FUCK YOU PEOPLE. fuck everyone. go to hell you shitload, worthless low lifes. vermin.

haha. feel good typing senseless crap.

i am going to vent all my frustration into tetris and playing the piano. good night.

it is just impossible to wear these out in Singapore's weather. :< no autumn wear allowed!

I'd finished watching Lolita (1997). I don't really like it at all. Not one bit, but it does makes me want to pick the book up and read. The girl is sick. She has the most manipulative whorish character. Then again, it's pretty fascinating the way she portrayed herself. It's not erotic in any way but the plot is a bit off limits.

Here's the trailer. The whole movie is on youtube, anyway.

LOL. i hadnt done ballet for almost a year already. i suck but i did a pirouette as someone suggested.

   

hello readers. you really need to find youtube videos of these. they are amazing. xx

my dog was trying to rape my other dog. it's really funny because .... i don't know its just funny. i'd just separated them both now. i reckon my girl dog is lesbian though, she loves (only when i'm giving her food) me more than her doggy partner.

it's the holidays but i don't feel in that mood yet. so many things need to be done, yet so little time! ;(

and yes, yesterday was fulfilling because i managed to go shopping with money. finally! and the evening was spent well worth. anyway, it think i should go finish watching cherrybomb. i was halfway through.

fuck you. inconsiderate rude disrespectful piece of shit. haha fuck everything. i feel so hurt. i want to die. bitch.

lol. whatever. hehe

hiding in my closet n____n~ using my laptop. because i kinda like the smell of moth balls.

no life. just me and my blog.

a lovely love poem

this is a love poem.
it shall be very lovely.
the stars, the trees,
the moon, the bees,
the things that fill my heart with glee,

they twinkle, shine, winking at you.
with each breath they take, in exchange of yours.
reflecting light whenever it's dark.
the uniformed order, provides security.

however.
in exchange for all of these,
all i got was a fleeting thrill.
incomparable to the things i love;
the stars, the trees,
the moon, the bees.
indeed,
this is a love poem.
but it isnt for who you think it might be.

I ROTE U A POEM.

I WROTE IT ON MA RIST.

I ROTE IT WIV A RAZER BLADE.

IT ENDED WID A TWIST.

DA BLADE WAS SHARP AND NARROW>

I DID IT 2 KILL DA PAIN.

AS I FINISHED MA 1ST SENTENCE

DA BLADE HIT A VAIN.

I SAW MA POEM RUN DOWN MA ARM

AND DRIP ONTO DA FLOOR

I SAW A PILE OF BLOOD>

AND DEN I SAW NO MORE.

SHIT YOU HAVE A BUG ON YOUR SCREEN!

all.i.ever.wanted.was.to.be.wanted.

I am unmotivated to do my work. My mom thinks that I am spending way too much time on my computer. So, I bought my laptop and charger out to the library and stayed that. And then I lied that I'm out with my friends but all I want to do is be alone. What am I going to do with my life? How am I suppose to know what's right. This is a stupid blog. Everything is stupid. You are stupid. I am stupid. Where are the answers. Yeah, don't worry I'll find my way. What if I won't ever be able to?

Is it normal to feel all this angst inside me? It's like nothing goes right. 

Things that I want

Possibly also the things that I can never have or have enough.

Money
Boobs
Thin, stick like legs
Cool clothes
Cool accessories
Cool shoes
A trip to Berlin
Money
The feeling of acceptance
My own apartment
Freedom
Money
Piano skills like a pro
Ability to write backwards
A trip to UK
Long long hair
A established design company that wants me
Not having to feel lonely
A pair of really awesome stockings
Able to pull of wearing a bikini
Blue hair
Perfect eyesight
Perfect skin
Perfect toes
Perfect everything
A kitten
A bunny
A chinchilla
Ribbon necklace
Money
Ability to solve rubiks cube in less than 10 seconds
Do a backflip
Scream like a mental person without being judge
Ride on a giraffe
Do a perfect hand stand without the support from a person or the wall


Let a girl dream!

THE.ZHIWEI.WRIGGLE!

Popular request. And therefore it shall be granted!

gee, you have no idea how much i want to be recognized as a mythical creature. i don't know what is wrong with me but i keep staring into space and day dream. yet, there are no inspirations. it's frightening. like watching a horror movie alone, and expecting the pop outs yet you're still watching it.

OH Lord.

I had the scariest dream this morning. I don't know why but I always dream in the day, perhaps it's because I'm half awake. Anyway, it seemed almost real. It's scary in a way that I thought it was happening. I dreamt that I got kicked out of my church and the church aunties were having a riot to kick me out. And then my mom was trying to defend me.....and then after everything my mom bought me to some Bedok neighborhood stationary shop to buy sailormoon stickers. Fucking weird, but gee, I really thought it was real! I need to stop thinking too much.

i want to feel beautiful inside and out. :C

fuck it!

../

because her hair is cooler than mine. ;____;

i'd just ate 4 bars of chocolate. lazy and unmotivated to do anything. IMMAH SLOTH!

my mom just yelled at me to clean my room. i dived into my bed and pretend to sleep. and then just now when she went down to the market, i teleported back to my laptop!!! #feellikaahbozz

ok tumblrrrrrrrtime!

chew the fat.

i don't know what to update about. the recent highlight in my life was how i got a great deal from la senza bras and panties from last saturday, in which i shall not further discuss anymore. sims social is boring me out. tumblr is sucking my soul. oh well, just a moody teenager with a stupid lame blog. ah yes, i enjoyed myself very much while going out with somebody. lastly, I can't wait for 30th. Then, it'll be like SO LONG SUCKERS to mah friends who are still in singapore. heh.

I saw charleneeee tu today! can't wait to hang out soon. really need to destress, go crazy before i literally GO CRAZY! ;____; okay, bye.