Sunday, July 31, 2011

growing my hair like this! i want it! long hair is so weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee / u \ OOO!

Saturday, July 30, 2011



i am frustrated. as frustrated as i can be. i hate my parents. is it normal? like do teenagers usually do that? i don't know. but i hate them so much and i want to strangle them. i know i will never do that, but boy, do i fucking hate them so much. just leave me alone.

actually nothing happened, really. but it's just the presence. my mother's irritating shit. she yells at the stupidest lamest things. like washing my hair around after 9pm. fucking lame. or forgetting to bring my waterbottle to school. i don't want to listen anymore. I CAN'T EVEN LISTEN TO MUSIC because she snatched away my headphones. and she's threatening to dump my laptop away. hurrah, even better. a greater excuse that i don't have to attend school anymore. she doesn't like me going to that school anyway.  you, are just lucky that you don't have over controlling parents. i'm jealous.

Friday, July 29, 2011

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this is my favorite emoticon right now. 

Thursday, July 28, 2011


it's really scary!

oh brandzzz you smell so good!*


One of the loveliest poem, I've ever read. I do hope you understand, it's deep. Heh heh. Now, I really need to visit the pasir ris library, they have loads of poem books. hardly anyone borrows or reads them, since most of the time the ones I looked for are available over there. 

By the way, I am addicted to this song! Soooooo - w -!! Okay, enjoy and I still have my essay to complete! :(

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

zee final



Don't do love, don't do friends
I'm only after success
Don't need a relationship
I'll never soften my grip

Don't want cash, don't want car
Want it fast, want it hard
Don't need money, don't need fame
I just want to make a change

I know exactly what I want and who I want to be
I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine
I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy

school is killing meeeehhhhhhhhhhhhh

My work so far, not impressive but it's satisfactory enough.  


i had been a very happy girl. i don't know why, but I don't see the reasons sulking anymore. to hell with anybody who well, anything that doesn't go my way. i will make it happen sooner or later! I AM DETERMINED TO WHATEVER THAT'S GOING TO CHALLENGE ME! i shan't pout about my body. i mean, it's not like i dont exercise or i'm size 12 blahblah blahhh. i run thrice a week. yes, i'd been losing weight too ( i wasn't satisfied that physically it didnt do much change) so i'm not going to care anymore. i will enjoy all kinds of food (still with control hur hur eh). must be moodswings. :/ at least it's a happy one.

Monday, July 25, 2011

let's face it.

rupert grint has grown up. after watching cherrybomb, i think, he looks waayyyy hotter. when the fuck have i become such a BLAH!

slams forehead to table. bye.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

just letting you know, i'm not dead. but i am as lazy as a fat sloth on diet. i have touched none of the homework that i was suppose to complete over the weekends, and when my mom walked in and questioned what i'm doing on my laptop... i lied and said, ''im doing my assignments! what do you think i am doing?'' in fact, i'd completed watching a whole season of some anime over two days. on a side note, i bought three boxes of magnum minis (liars) and have already finished a box and a half over a short period of.....2 days. fuck, i'm fat. and ugly and a freak!!!

and i still have no concept for my work. too lazy to type out a 10-page essay. omg, i'd gained back fats too. TT____TT not forgetting, fantasizing having a fictional anime character as my boyfriend. -take 6 deep breaths-


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

The Ugly One

The following is an extract from a story that i'm currently writing. Please feel free to read through it. :) It's only a quarter of act one.

Act One
The raindrops fell onto his hat.  Faint splattering sound echoed in the alley, hissing as lightning struck the sky. Another large boom rang into the far away mountains, and he couldn’t help but feel the rumble of the clap. How beautiful the harmonies of the rain tapping. Suddenly, a splash of water slapped across his face, destroying his serenity of being alone. The little girl tittered with glee as she saw the man recovered with fright from the water. Her mother smiled and gave her a pat. Instead of scolding her for the nasty act, she was encouraged to do it again. The poor man was drenched, shivering in cold; he hugged himself tighter to keep himself warm. Although he was in such a shoddy situation, the man was not disheartened. Deep inside him, he knew that being a nothing could one day become something.

Martin was born into a society where everyone was genetically born to be perfect. Their nose was sculpted into such precision, it seemed almost impossible that they were real. Lips were full and pulped, from young till old; they never changed, and will stay forever the same. Their skin, flawless and porcelain white, were specially modified to never sag or have a single blemish. Needless to say, everyone born into this world was polished and impeccable. Everyone except Martin.

He had never question why he was born this way or how he could change himself. His left arm was filled with bumpy brown tumors, big and small, it covered his arm entirely, not a part of his arm or hand was spared from those malignant growths. Sometimes a boil or two would surface on those swellings, oozing yellow pus. Martin could only ease the painful sores by squeezing his arm firmly. The severe neurofibromatosis had also made him lopsided, limping as he walked. He was transmuted like a mutant. It was one in a billion that somebody could be born imperfect.  Martin was known as a ‘ugly’ in the community.

From the day Martin was born, his mother abandoned him. Perhaps, it was because she was too humiliated to have given birth to a ugly. Perhaps, it was better off if she pretended that she had never ever gave birth to one anyway. Left forsaken in an orphanage, Martin grew up learning that he was a vermin in the community. He had never communicated or played with the children before. Even if he tried, he was never accepted. The doll-liked children would ignore Martin, as if he was nothing worth more than a speck of dust. Yet, the spark in Martin’s heart never once douse away.

Once, while Martin was peering from the classroom window, he saw all the children playing delightedly in the yard. How he longed to join them in their games and laugh at what they were all laughing at. Martin felt a sudden cascade of courage flowed through him. ‘Today, shall be the day!’ he thought to himself. With his tiny fists clenched tightly, he marched out of the classroom and into the lawn. The children immediately stopped what they were doing and turned their perfect little heads towards Martin.

“Can I join, too?”. Martin whispered. 

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I'm done

Okay, finally completed my advert after procrastinating for a century. The typefaces are a little off isn't it?

i need legs like this to pull such an outfit.

sick shoes. i want and will wear them all. 

she's awesome. her blogs and clothes. not to forget her legs are to die for!

Monday, July 18, 2011

giant sigh

I'm telling you, every single time i see this photo of her (nose), I will run like a ninja and take my nose huggie clip. I'm not content with my nose. Okay, I'm just trying my best to look better. :/

These are lovely!

From wildfox, but it cost like 65 pounds. Which is absolutely absurd!

Saw this on a online children store. Need adult size. It's so cute!

Too expensive!

Anyway, I'm trying to find these, if anyone happen to see similar items, please drop the details here. :D thanks alot.

Sunday, July 17, 2011


what dy'a think?

I did it!!!! Well, I've yet to show my lecturer. :/

Thursday, July 14, 2011


fuck i'd just splurged on money and now my debit card is.... is...... losing it's value!!!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


i am lazy and therefore did this crap for my assignment. the only thing i'm proud of is the line work. it was completed really quickly.

no sketches. aiya sucks. I AM SICK OF PHOTOSHOP (for now) leave me alone to dieeeeee  /_  \

Monday, July 11, 2011


Pretty proud of myself because I can now do this without googling tutorials. YAY!

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YIPPEY! ok lah, very easy to do one but i kept procrastinating. 

sometimes i do wish i have a boipren but then, boys are too naive and a complete waste of my time. so to hell with em!

How to make a gif from video

How can you make a normal working gif from a video? It's pretty simple. And any video can be converted into a gif, even those on youtube(which can be done by googling a youtube video converter) :) REALLY hope it helps!

Things you'll need:
The desired video
Following all these steps properly.
*enlarge pictures by clicking on them.

You need a video ready. And it MUST be in .mov format. I have no idea why, but other formats don't work. So, if you're using a mac, you can change it simply by, right click (control+click) and select 'Get info'.

change the format by retyping '.mov'

Next, open Photoshop ... 

File > Import > Video Frames to Layers

After selecting your desired video, you would see this window.

Choose the 'Selected Range Only' option, hold shift and click on the video stream for your desired gif image to show. 
*you can still choose the 'Beginning to End' option, but converting the file into frames would take really long, unless your video is only a few seconds long.


You should be able to see your video converted into frames (below) but if you don't see em', don't fret! You can do so by clicking Window > Animation and voila!

After editing the frames, you can proceed and save your work. However, it is advisable to adjust your image size to 32 dpi resolution. You don't want your image to take forever to load. Some websites, like blogger for instance will not load gifs that are bigger than a certain amount.

You can now save your gif by selecting 'Save for Web & Devices'

Make sure it is in 'GIF' format. If your image is still too large, you can adjust the 'Colors'.

AND you're done! Pretty easy right? 

If you have any enquires, feel free to drop it here :) Alright, need to do my assignments, BYE!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

can't wait for the sky to turn dark

and then i can go to my room, with the lights off and admire my new glow-in-the-dark bands in my mouth. WAHAHAHHAHHHAAHHA. ouch.

Friday, July 8, 2011

xray fruits

i was bored so i did more photoshop explorations. alas, the products of the experience.

inspired by my recent dental xray. do you want a tutorial? i can show you how to do this.

good night. 

Wednesday, July 6, 2011


exercise 2: blurring objects

tai pang, my lecturer must be one of the most amusing person i've ever encountered. at least he doesn't mind everyone laughing at his speech pronunciation. good on that.

clicky for a higher resolution to give yourself a little scare. i dare you to stare at her lips, for more than 10s. :)

Monday, July 4, 2011

If the world wants, and only welcome evil. I'll do evil. If its the only way of acceptance.
I'm on the bus right now. I think I'm really lucky to still have a friend when I need. I do hope you get your bicycle too, more cycling trips to nowhere. Wish time turns back on itself. I hate the world. You see many many examples of human evil, wretched actions everywhere. But I shan't let these get through me.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

today i was crazy. and ran away from home.

Friday, July 1, 2011

15 dream facts.

1. You forget 90% of your dreams. Within 5 minutes of walking, half of your dreams is forgotten. Within 10, 90% is gone.
2. Blind people also dream. People who are blind after birth can see images in their dreams. People who are born blind do not see any images, but have dreams equally vivid involving their senses of sound, smell touch and emotion.
3. Everybody dreams. Every human dreams (except on case of extreme psychological disorder). If you think you are not dreaming, you just forget your dreams.
4. In our dreams we only see faces, that we already know. Our mind is not inventing faces - in our dreams we see real faces of real people that we have seen during out life but may not know or remember. We have all seen hundreds of thousands of faces throught our lives, so we have an endless supply of characters for out brain to utilize during our dreams.
5. Not everybody dreams in color. A full 12% of sighted people dream exclusively in black and white. The remaining number dream in full color. Studies from 1915 through 1950s maintain that the majority of dreams were in black and white, but these results began to change in the 1960s. Today, only 4.4% of the dreams of under-25-year-olds are in black and white. Recent research has suggested that those changing results may be linked to the switch from black-and-white film and TV color media.
6. Dreams are symbolic. If you dream about some particular subject it is not often that the dream is about that. Dreams speak in a deeply symbolic language. Whatever symbol your dream picks on is most unlikely to be a symbol for itself.
7. Emotions. The most common emotion in dreams is anxiety. Negative emotions are more common than positive ones.
8. You can have four to seven dreams in one night. On average, you can dream anywhere from one or two hours every night.
9. Animals dream too. Studies have been done on my different animals, and they all show the same brain waves during dreaming sleep as humans. Watch a dog sleep sometimes. The paw move like they are running and they make yipping sound as if they are chasing something in a dream.
10. Body Paralysis. Rapid eye movement (REM) sleep is normal stage of sleeping characterized by rapid movements of the eyes. REM sleep in adult human typically occupies 20-25% of total sleep, about 90-120 minutes of night’s sleep.
Durning REM sleep the body is paralyzed by a mechanism in the brain in order to prevent movements which occur in the dream from causing the physical body to move. However, it is possible for the mechanism to be triggered before, during, or after normal sleep while the brain awakens.
11. Dream incorporation. Our mind interprets the external stimuli that our senses are bombarded with when we are asleep and make them a part of our dreams. This means that sometimes, in our dreams, we hear a sound from reality and incorporate it in a way. For example you may be dreaming that you are in a concert, while your brother is playing gutair during your sleep.
12. Men and women dream differently. Men tend to dream more about other men. Around 70% of the characters in a man’s dream are other men. On the other hand, a women’s dream contains almost an equal number of men and women. Aside from that, men generally have more aggressive emotions in their dreams that the female lot.
13. Precognitive dreams. Results of several surveys across large population sets indicate that between 18% and 38% of people have experianced at least one precognitive dream and 70% of experianced deja vu. The percentage of persons that believe precognitive dreaming is possible is even higher, ranging from 63% to 98%
14. If you are snoring, then you cannot be dreaming. This fact is repeated all over the Internet, but it’s a bit suspicious whether it’s really true as it haven’t found any scientific evidence to support it.
15. You can experience an orgasm in your dream. You cannot only have sex as pleasurable as in your real life while dreaming, but also experience an orgasm as strong as a real one, without any wet result. The sensations felt while lucid dreaming (touch, pleasure and ect.) can be as pleasurable and strong as the sensation experienced in the real world.