“An honorable human relationship—that is, one in which two people have the right to use the word ‘love’—is a process, delicate, violent, often terrifying to both persons involved, a process of refining the truths they can tell each other. 

It is important to do this because it breaks down human self-delusion and isolation. It is important to do this because in doing so we do justice to our own complexity.

It is important to do this because we can count on so few people to go that hard way with us.” —Adrienne Rich, On Lies, Secrets, and Silence

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When we become real people to one another, we become less susceptible to hurting and policing one another, both figuratively and in the very literal and pragmatic senses of poking holes in the lie of a dominant and univocal mode of living as the “right” one. Vulnerability is not a wound, but a cure.

silent riot

sometimes ive got a lot to say, but i give second thoughts before turning them in to actual spoken words. is it the right situation? would it leave a negative impact? what are these risks if i do?

i mean, not every single sentence turns in to a internal debate, but i like to give them a bit of a filter before letting them go. unless, it's laughter or just weird sounds....

perhaps, one day when i muster enough rage and courage, it would explode... but i hope it would turn beautiful. somehow i also imagine this metaphorically like a exploding pimple with it's pus flying everywhere... the satisfaction and disgust, emotions mix in to one.

your beautiful mind

you have a beautiful mind. your experiences, believes, thinking and perception makes you, and you as a whole, physically as a body and your mind as its own entity. this matter that resides in your head, they would disappear in this world in time to come but everlasting in another... to infinity.

do not despair or feel unworthy, because it is only temporary as change is constant. there would never be the same moment ever again. keep up, you are doing well.

I do not like the idea of 'fan page', or perhaps this term.

I think having 'fans' are suppose to support this idea that you are being followed, greatly admired for whatever achievement you have gained, possibly be inspired to also gain such success. Somehow, I feel that social platforms have totally twisted this and made a negative turn to many people with a huge followers base to feel entitled. Maybe this does not apply to everyone but it appears to be a trend (within the trend lol) from my observations.

It is a shame... our selfie generation and the chase for fame through technology is slowly wrapping our heads and changing ourselves in to shells.

my heart aches

i dont like this feeling and i want to stop experiencing it. i dont want to be in love or all the nonsense. its going through all over again. fuck this

modern consumerism is digusting

living abroad

one of the greatest joy of living abroad is the luxury of freedom and choice. i mean, to be able to stay abroad is already a luxury of choice, which then opens more doors of opportunity.

living abroad allowed me to compare my life back home and somewhere else,  mainly to be able to witness the contrast of culture, and through such experiences i gain knowledge in a wider scope.

perhaps, it allows you to acknowledge the fact that you can go anywhere on earth (even beyond) and this has a lot to do with space (especially urban spaces). singapore/ hong kong are both very small, and they pose restrictions in physical, mental and spiritual within the aspect of space. to live in a place which is bigger, allowed me to physically feel free and my mind had more space, and courage to try/do more things.

just like able to think something like this, is probably because of staying abroad. ITS AWESOME!

i feel so blessed, thanks mom + dad + everyday experiences + god + life + everything that allow me to be me at this moment :D