LOL. seriously, why is it so difficult to have a proper conversation with a male that display interest in you that doesnt have to exploit any part of a female body?
i am honestly really disappointed with myself and the decisions i make sometimes. it is part of growing up. unfortunately, some mistakes are hard to recover from. i am so frustrated , that i dont want to care. i dont want to please anyone. i want to be free, do whatever the hell i want. and i jolly dont have to report anything to anyone. literally being held at gun point sometimes.
i want to work hard for the things i do. able to fully support myself and be surrounded by positive people who actually care for each other.
sadly, it takes way more courage to let somethings go. and i wonder if it would be yet another bad decision. it takes skills and experience. :(